i still cant get it through my mind how different things are now.

i just cant.

this time a year ago. i was with him at his grandfathers funeral. he sang. it was beautiful and i cried.

he told me we would get married in that church.

ugh. it just makes me sad that something that WAS so good had to end. but its all in Gods plan i know that. but its ok for me to remember the good times and smile right.

im ready for the BIG love. im done with the tester version.

im not sure who that BIG love will be with but im excited to find out.

i hope its you.

only time will tell.

LA