im not exactly sure what im here to write. sometimes i just get this urge to type. so here i am.

i think that things right now are chugging a long quite smoothly. there are bumps here or there but i do my best to over come them and always do over come them. i think that right now im a little stuck. i think that i need a new challenge. although school is quite a challenge and working things out for me is a challenge as well im feeling a little bored. yeaah i think bored is the word. im needing a little more from God right now. dont get me wrong i love where im at and i trust God with everything but i guess i just need a little more from him right now. because with this new attitude of me letting things happen with the guidance of God ive found myself not doing anything...kind of. im not sure i can explain it exactly but i need something. something new. something exciting. i want God to open my eyes. i want God to give me this new exciting thing that i felt coming all summer. God i trust you with this. and i know that you work on a timeline of your own and will bring this to me when you know im ready. but i feel more and more ready everyday. i have felt really ready since about two weeks ago and have never realized i wasnt since then. ive been praying and thinking and trusting God for so long and im trusting that you will show me what this is all coming to. the reason for this reassurance i had so blindly. this blindness is begining to be harder to keep a live and if i cant see what is working and coming and happening lord then i pray that maybe you can lift my spirits again to where they were a couple weeks or even just a week ago. i know you love me but help me to know your love more closely help me to see your love in my life more and help me to feel your love daily. God ive learned so much of who i am but now i want to know more of who you are. i want to know more of where your taking me and i cant wait for you to show all this to me. father i know you will take care of all my needs and will take care of these that i have no part in without my asking and knowing and on your timeline that you see fit for me. i trust you. lord like i have never trusted you in my life and i know when im truely ready things will happen.